Cheers to 21

So yesterday I’ve recently just turned 21! What a blessing to see another year. I celebrated it by having a birthday brunch on Sunday and played lots of games on the day of my birthday! I had my first margarita drink and tried flavored soju hehe. My birthday was on a Monday, but it was still so much fun and I’ve honestly had a blast with the best people.

I’m a proud Aquarius and it’s the rarest zodiac sign with the least born in February that makes me feel like I’m one of a kind. Turning 21 in the pandemic makes me question about life and how my 20s are gonna be. I honestly feel like it was just yesterday that I’ve graduated from middle school rather than high school, but high school definitely flies by quick no matter how long you can’t wait to graduate already.

I’m relieved that I’ve graduated 2 years ahead of the pandemic and got to live some of my last moments of high school. Although high school had lots of its ups and downs, I’ve managed to make far better memories after graduation and maintained better relationships.

Life could change so quickly in a blink of an eye. I’ve learned so much in my 20 years of life going on to 21. Sometimes I wish I could go back and tell my teenage self that- life is what you make it to be and you’re the only one that’s in control of your own life.

I know how bad it would suck to turn 21 in the pandemic for people that miss partying and throwing big events. I’ve never been much of a drinker or a party animal anyways, but I’m perfectly fine not following social norms that society normally does. I’ve always liked being in my own bubble, and would rather celebrate a birthday night with a few great friends and loved ones.

Sure it’s a huge deal to many, because you’re finally at that legal age where you get to drink and be more independent to make your own decisions in life (unless your parents are super strict and live under them). Honestly, turning 21 doesn’t make that much of a difference to me besides being an official adult and having more responsibilities and opportunities.

In my opinion, your early 20s can be confusing. You’ve got people that are still in school, getting married, having kids, living their dream job, or getting lost in life. I believe that everyone has a different time frame in life and that age is just a number. It doesn’t matter where or when you get there as long as you end up content and successful with the life you’ve always dreamed of.

Once you’ve reached a certain age especially at 21, you’re expected to act and do things a certain way or have everything figured out by now. This time next year, some of us will graduate from college with a degree title and go on with our lives.

You feel like you’re behind in life somehow and start to compare yourself to others that already have it all. But then I remember that you still have a whole life ahead of you with so much potential to learn, grow, and mature. I would hate to feel rushed and think I’m running out of time.

I don’t want to be like anyone else but myself, because I’m still developing from my mistakes and failures that’ll help me become wiser. I’m also blessed to have big dreams with God by my side. We may be stuck in a pandemic, but the pandemic is just another obstacle to distract us from reaching our dreams when life has no limitations.

Being 21 makes me feel so old even though it’s just another year. You’re still so young and barely out of your teens, but also not considered a child anymore. We’re all slowly growing old, but I understand that it’s a natural part of life. It reminds me that life is way too short and that we should make the most of it no matter what age you turn. I’m not exactly sure how I should feel about this age, because I look almost nothing like my age and I’m a very petite person that’s babyfaced. Looking younger than your age has some advantages, but I gotta keep making sure that I bring my ID everywhere because people might not believe I’m 21 now (haha lol).

As a child growing up, I’ve always hated my birthday and cried almost every year. I usually get emotional and sensitive on my birthday for some reason. I’ve never looked forward to celebrating my birthday and wanted it to be over with. In elementary, I remember when my parents would bring cupcakes and an actual birthday cake to school. I’ve always hated the attention and being the center of the spotlight whenever I got sang Happy Birthday to, but I’ve never opened up to my parents about it. There was this one time in Kindergarten when my teacher and the whole class kept telling me to take the first bite, but I refused to because I was too shy. Even to this day, I’m still not a big fan of my birthday and would rather celebrate other people’s birthday. But I do understand that birthdays can be a very special day, because you’ve got to live to see another year on the day you were born.

Even though I’ve always hated my birthday, I’ve learned to embrace and appreciate my birthday more each year. I’ve realized that it’s a waste of time to constantly feel down, because there are people in this world that would do anything to spend their birthday with their deceased loved ones again. So I’m very grateful and blessed that God has given me a chance to live and discover who I really am whenever I feel lost.

“Every sixty seconds you spend angry, upset, or mad, is a full minute of happiness you’ll never get back.”

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I don’t feel 21 but I OFFICIALLY am!

I’m still a kid at heart though.

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